Day 38 - Danielle Kim
Is there a specific Bible passage or verse that comes to mind in the context of “Less of Me and More of Him”?
Exodus 4:10-12 But Moses said to the LORD, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.” Then the LORD said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.”
Every time I read these verses, I’m always so convicted. I relate a lot with Moses because I am Moses in this moment of his faith. I’m constantly giving God excuses and listing my inadequacies. But for me, it’s not an act of humbleness. Instead, it’s a lack of confidence. It’s hard for me to believe I can be like Moses or anyone from the Bible. But whenever I read these verses, I realize that I don’t think I can answer God’s calling because I focus on my capabilities. I can only see what I can and can’t do, and I don’t feel like I’m enough. Sometimes, I think my shortcomings have become an idol. I almost don’t believe that God is enough to cover my inadequacies.
God’s response to Moses’ unbelief seems aggressive but is so loving. It was never about what Moses or I could bring to the table. God is the one who provides me with the words to say and leads me where I need to go. He’s the one who does the miracles, not me. He’s the one who is great.
The story of Moses shows me that when I lower myself and allow God to work in me, I will see His signs and wonders. When I think less about my shortcomings and focus more on His sufficiencies, then and only then can there be more of Him.
Briefly explain which areas of your life you find most difficult to surrender to Christ.
I have a hard time surrendering my trust to God. There are a lot of areas I have an iron grip on in my life. I always tell myself I gave it up to God, but the next thing I know, I’m doing whatever I can to fix or control what I just surrendered. It’s hard when things don’t turn out the way I want. I started to feel forgotten and unloved by God. But in moments of clarity, I see how pointless it is. Things don’t go my way even when I hold on to them. I pray that I can come to a place of true surrender and trust Him in all areas of my life.
Share the areas of your life that have shifted from self-centeredness to Christ-centeredness.
I’m not sure how confidently I can speak to the areas in my life that are Christ-centered, but I know I have been trying! One challenging area is how I react towards my family members. They’re the ones who see all of who I am. Whenever they call me out on my mistakes or wrong me, I get extremely defensive. Sometimes, I think being a Christian means nothing to them. But these days, I constantly ask God, “What should I say?” or “What should I do?”, I feel bad even when I win, and God will often convict me about my actions. Even though it feels IMPOSSIBLE (and annoying), I pray that he continues to shift my pride and heart towards Christ.
What are some practical ways you can display Christ to those around you?
I need to be braver. I notice I like to put my peace of mind over most things. I’ll end up agreeing to things I don’t want to do or saying things I may not mean just to make others feel better. This way, I can avoid making people upset or hurt. But in doing so, I realize I don’t always tell the truth or share what God wants me to say. I’m always scared to offend, so I keep silent. I feel like God is calling me to be bold, not to stick up for myself, but to proclaim His truth to others.